wanna cry..thx alot e7=.=
i needa go for tuition..okay tts common for me.
but sec 3..i having 4 subs for tuition..
means 4 days of tuition..i'll have burnt brains larhh.
no tyme for outtings lerhh TT ARGHi wanna cry..seriously.
haiix.. cant be helped=.=
well..my sis is blogging alot of crap..on her blog.
(super twit bodoh! her typing)
aiya..nvm anw tmr is nthg day! free..sunday so my popo hse
well MON=GO OUT!!! yay!!
okay a day of happiness..finally..
if not its gonna be choir every wk..
tdy also..but tdy okay cuz aft choir i go find MS belle mainey rice rizky kai
yeahh thn aft a while go hme. well dont bother to blog now..
hahs stop here.

seriously..u r getting on my nerves..
bet no ones knws who i'm talking abt.
well u might blog hop to here anyway.
yarhh so anyway.. u r getting more and more irritating.
i told u before..pls dont be like tt..but nw u're still doing it.
can u just leave me alone?
which part of it dont u get it?
give me a little space yeah? it sucks to tell u almost everythg
i dont lyk it..why do i haf to ? i told u before..
u said okay..but haiix..nvm

well bac to now..hmm..
got choir ltr=.= yeahh
nid go sch earlier for sectionals haiix..
tdy is Ms Tan barhh so not tt bad hahs
well i hope i'll regain my passion..
haiix well tts all barhh

haiix..felt okay whn the results r out.
but whn i look carefully..haiix forgt it
i'm just super lost..although i've got clarice and MS
haiix..still maybe i just cant get over the fact tt we r separated.
seriously..it has been bothering me since this afternn in sch.
went to sch at 10.35 rched sch at 10.55.
stayed thr till 1 plus thn went to eat larhh..
eat lerhh thn go bac sch lyk 3 plus lerhh
stayed till 4 plus cuz spoke to chers why class lyk tt
all the "reasons" came out. haiix speechless>=(
no use larhh just cant chng lerhh..cant go e6 must go e7..
the combination i can manage..haiix seems i'll have to resign to my fate.
i'll get happier barhh. no choice larhh sigh
i'll be okay barhh..hope next year will b a peaceful year..
i can just pray and hope for the better..yeahh!
b positive..thrs hope..thr will be^^
haiix..cheering myself up is hard..
just feel lyk thrs a stone on my heart..
woahh..okay hahs but its true.
tmr got badminton but i cant go..haiix thx choir..
tmr choir AGN..haiix tt is fate..AGN
forgt it..

felt like i'm the dumbest, slowest, useless, unwanted and univited freak on earth.
seriously..felt tt way since ystd night..i seem to be the last at knowing stuff.
haiix..cant help it i guess..haiix..but still=.=
i feel unreliable and all..haiix..
but stil..i've got to thank belle for chating with me ystd..
mostly craping =D
thx clarice for trying to make me cheer up tis morning via sms.
love her =D
and thx maniey..although u called at the wrong time..hahs
she called me tis morning..thn asked me if i'm ok..thn i say idont knw..
thn i started crying =X hahs yeah
the most funny thg is mainey cried aft hearing me cry..
woahh~ hahs thx for cheering me up..
although u seem to have forgotten to call me aft u BATHE..
bet your outside now..=.=
well..tmr is results day!
hope i can get in the class i wan<3

hahs.ystd didnt use the com.
so let me blod abt wad happen.
watched HSM 3 with MS, zaf,mal,fathullah, jialat and rizky.
rizky sat alone..he last min say wan watch aft we buy the tickets..
so no choice he sat at the row behind us.
well the movie was lyk AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
dam nice larhh bodoh..=X i wanna watch agn.
so if anyone wans to watch it agn tell me arh!
muahahahah! i buy the soundtrack..(aft super long concideration=X)
thn came hme..watched the DVD tts inside the soundtrack.
very nice =D hahs.
well..enough of the happy stuff..thrs choir ltr..
ha ha ha=.=
haiix...i cnt stand in alrdy..bt still i dont haf a choice.
thrs concert..thn hongkong...thn SYF>.<
siian..concert haiix..nvm hang in thr

okay wad bullshit am i talking! HSM 2 is brilliant! cant believe i cried>.<
yeah the part whr thy part.nice larhh. i didnt watch in front but i took a few peeks on and off.
but now i just wanna plant my butt at the living rm.
hahs continue ltr yeahh.

ARGH!~ stupid psp 3000!
i cant use it till 2 weeks larhh cuz the games cant play marhh
ALL lehh ALL the games in the memory card cant play! ROAR!
need do some stuff to the system than can! walao.
2 weeks lehh now got psp also wan cry larhh! &#%$*!^&~!
wadever larhh! dont tink abt sad stuff!
tmr going out <3 muahahhaha!
watch HSM 3 tdy chn 5 doing HSM 2.
dont plan on watching it larhh. although thy say its nice.
helped my mather vaccum the living rm awhile ago lol really tiring
well i dont know wad else to post about. cya.

lol..i read isabelle clarice & mainey's blog<3
love thm alot larhh^^thy really rock!
well tdy went to vivo city.
thrs a sony roadshow thr with a PSP 3000 soft launch!
yeahh been pestering my dad to buy for me one and now he did!
$320..without cable and memory card. but okae larhh.
(although i'm still dam pissed with the stupid 3000)
warrenty cant send..dont know why.=(
nvm..i'll just bare with all this crap!
i feel dam bad larhh.2 days ago just got my HP and now tdy got my PSP 3000
bet my dad's brokeTT sry daddy!
but anyway, he say as long as i study hard its okae^^
monday going out ! i dont know who going but tmr i'll know!
dont know what else to post abt. cya

lol tdy seems to be both good and bad..
good part: 2nd in class and ranked 20 in lvl.^^
bad part: crying and parting.
yeahh cried like a water tap larhh. (me and zaini just cnt stp)
lol hahs. top 3 in class so i can get PSP soon..i hope
cuz, i just got my new HP tdy^^
hahs but i dam pissed larh >=(
i cant transfer at all larhh. Hate new fones.
hahs W902^^ muahahahha!
its flat and all..and it just came out 2 wks ago!
yay! but BOOO i cant transferTT
dam angry larhh. i tried alot of freaky times lerh lorh D=
wad ever larhh. tdy totally sucked me out.
realised alot of thgs..
i came to realise that i was stupid to wait for someone who doesnt bother.
haiix, how dumb..well its the holidays! i dont ever wanna think about you again.
i've got better thgs to do thn just being dumb and waste my youth.
tdy will be the last time i'll ever cry for you.
i'm not gonna be this stupid anymore. you just wait..i deserve better
you seem to be perfect..but i'm not gonna put my trust on that anymore.
i give up. all the tears and sweat had wore me off. i dont wanna be such an idiot.
wadever it is, i must forget you!
P.S: i got some lobang that comes with the HP hahs!

lol now at my cousin's hse.
gonna rot ltr. cuz my sis wanna pazhan the laptop for therest of the day with the phrase,
"ay! is i ask daddy bring one lehh!"
lol wadever larhh she was the one that say "i feel lyk wan ask daddy bring"
thn i was the or that say"ask daddy bring larh!"=.=
wth..lol she win larhh lazy fight with this type of ppl larh.
shit now stomach pain argh wadever larhh.
got the feeling i wanna "kabish" so ppl>.<
come noisy me walao.
nvm sua. anw i suck on friday.
i went to meet MS thy all up to haf dinner larhh..thn thy delay dam late.
7pm thn go walk fetch maniey thn wanna go eat.
but thn aft tt i nid go hme=.=
so sad larhh. nearly cried but yeahh nvm.
so my dinner that night was a cup of milo with 5 spoons of fried rice.
lol yeahh its okae larhh.
well ystd went for dinner with my relatives at Asia Grand Resteraunt. lol
total bill was approximately $1000. =X
yeahh but is divided by 3 families, so yeahh
bt a bit pissed off by some stuff larhh.
haiix..all against one lehh. thy confirm win larhh.=.=
lol slpt at 2am^^ woot~
yeahh hahs thn tdy go cousin hse now @ cousin's hse eat lorhh
thn tmr i going far east with NOVYY!~
haiix actuali gt mainey derh lorh but she cnt go now TT sad
haiix i so sad larhh. but thn stil carry on the palns.
novyy very high lorh. she this morning sms me keep high.
she say "i wanna buy this and that and this and that" hahs
i was lyk WOAH~ hahs yeahh..well blog some other day and update afew pics some other tym.
cant USE the COM any more tdy.=.=
yeahh so gotta start rotting and do other stuff(kena forced cuz if nt i reali gonna rot)
haiix yeahh so bye.

dead..dead tired.
never expected that i will excersice for 4 days in a row..
totally puffed me out tuesday played badminton at blk 267.
maisheng house there. hahs.
wednesday..i will never forget that day=.=
realised how hard a freaky basketball is.
this is what happened:
i just sat down beside mainey and clarice after badminton to rest.
stopped talking and faced the front. saw something orange zooming near.
didnt know what was it till it was right infront of me.
hit me with a "boom" sound and my vision went blur. saw black coners and purple sparkes.
shocked and cried. its dam pain larhh. my head back fire some more.
jialat larhh he duwan dodge i also wont kena.
(timothy was aiming jialat..at least they were standing)
i was sitted thats why it hit the head. got dizzy and headaches for therest of the day.
the next day..homec paper. couldnt think properly. dam it
well i didnt care and went to play badminton again.
started at 10am in the morning. woah~
but its okay. the more i played the better my head feels. so played till 6pm.
not bad arhh. 8 hours of badminton plus breaks all that. gossipped abit then went hme.
so tired felt like falling apart>.<
today..went back to school for choir.
some dance lesson. learnt street jazz. it was super fun! hahs but i feel like torned apart.
the warm ups got me dead already. dont even mention the dancing part.
but it was fun larhh.^^ ahahs
so tired larhh the dance steps are like crazy..
so fast and the energy input for every move must be strong and firm.
my legs, arms,waist are all falling off.
but its worth it hahs^^ there's gonna be another lesson on tuesday! cant wait to finish the whole choreography.

i think this is super cool does your name fit you?

♫ V: not judgmental
♫ I: very good kisser
♫ V: not judgmental
♫ I: very good kisser
♫ E: has gorgeous eyes
♫ N: loves to laugh and smile


~~~~~~JUST REPOST IT~~~~~
♫ A: hot
♫ B: loves people
♫ C: good kisser
♫ D: can kick ur butt
♫ E: has gorgeous eyes
♫ F: loves people wild and crazy adore ♫ you
♫ G: very outgoing
♫ H: stick to one
♫ I: very good kisser
♫ J: is very sexual
♫ K: crazy
♫ L: is really sweet
♫ M: Makes dating fun
♫ N: loves to laugh and smile
♫ O: has one of the best personalities ♫ ever
♫ P: popular with all types of people
♫ Q: a helpful minded
♫ R: funny
♫ S: makes people laugh
♫ T: smile to die for
♫ U: is loved by everyone
♫ V: not judgmental
♫ W: very broad minded
♫ X: never let people tell you what to do
♫ Y: is loved by everyone
♫ Z: can be funny and dumb at times

this i got from friendster:

-Kiss on the stomach; be ready,...,
-Kiss on the Forehead; expresing a love 4 him/her
-Kiss on the Ear; seducing!,haha!
-Kiss on the Cheek; cute,
-Kiss on the Hand; I adore yah!..
-Kiss on the Neck; We belong together..
-Kiss on the Shoulder; I want you..
-Kiss on the Lips; I love you..
____________________________________________________
What the gesture means...
-Holding Hands; We definitely like each other.
-Slap on the Butt; That's mine.
-Holding on tight; I don't want to let go.
-Looking into each other's Eyes; liking each oder,
-Playing with Hair; Tell me you love me.
-Arms around the Waist; I like you too much to let go.
-Laughing while Kissing; I am completely comfortable with you.
____________________________________________________
Advice;
Don't ask for a kiss, take one.
If you were thinking about someone while reading this,
you're definitely in Love.
____________________________________________________

1.Who was the last person you fell asleep texting to?
- should be long ago. cant rmb.

2.Who was the last person you couldn't take your eyes off?
- hahs! =P should be without the "last" word

3.Is your handwriting large, tiny, or pretty normal?
- depends on how rush i get.

4.Are you a morning person or a night person?
- can i be a afternoon person?

5.What would you do if you opened up your front door full of surprises?
- depends on what is it and who is it from.

6.Are you there for your friends?
- i'm sort of KPO so yeahh and always too =D

7.Are you a forgiving person?
- yeahh.depends on what situation but mostly i am.

8.What do you drink?
- what i want.

9.Are you dating the last person you were with?
- if i ever am, i'm gonna go berserk.

10. Who is with you now?
- alone.

11. Anything bothering you now?
- tomorrow's geog paper and a something invading my head.

12.What are you listening to right now?
- nothing.

13.The highlight of your week?
- exams, exams, exams and CLASS OUTING!<3

14.Who were the last people you ate with?
- my ahma?

15.Who is the last person you talked to on the phone?
- shermaine. geog stuff and of coz all the crap>.<

16.Do you like your mom?
- my mother=my friend.

17.Who was the last person to text you?
- my dad.

18.Has anyone ever said you look like a celebrity?
- now, no. years ago yes.

19.Name someone with the same birthday as you?
- know none.

20.Have you ever had a drunken night in Mexico?
- haven even been thr.

21.What are your plans for tonight?
- study and slp.

22.If you could move somewhere else, would you?
- depends whr it is.

23.What does the seventh text in your inbox says ?
- LOLS! U so "lucky" arh? Good luck liao loh. If any question dunnoe, ask me xD

24.What's your favorite subject?
- art.(dont need to study)

25.Last thing that made you laugh out loud?
- i laugh everyday. my frens are all mad people=X

26.Summer lessons?
- right..whats that?

27.Do you know if anyone likes you?
- er...right...

28.What did you dream about last night?
- i slept lyk a pig!

29.Do you want to be married right now?
- crazy question.

30.What were you doing at 4am this morning?
- sleeping.

31.What do you usually do first in the morning?
- brush my teeth.

32.Do you drink coffee on a regular basis?
- not really.

33.What is making you smile now?
- this question? (this question very weird)

34.Are you looking forward to tomorrow?
- if i am, i must be really crazy.

35.How many different beverages have you had today?
- i drank only water.

36.Any plans for today?
- watch TV, study,sleep.

38.What is your favorite flavor of JELLY?
- hmm..not sure.

39.Do you want children?
- yeahh.

40.What is on your mind now?
- its hard to answer.

41.Anything black on your right?
- almost everythg on the table is black, even the table.

42.Are you expecting a phone call?
- nope.

43.If alcohol were banned, what would your reaction be?
- i'll go outside singapore to drink it.

44.What day is it today?
- monday.

45.Are you excited about this weekend?
- yeahh! eating with my relatives^^

46.Do people underestimate you?
- nahh.the opposite.

47.When you're in a bad mood, what will always put you in a better mood?
- another "hard to answer question".

48.Last time you swore?
- like just today during the history paper=.=.

49.Do you still talk to the person you fell hardest for?
- yeahh.but rarely happen.

50.Where did you last sleep other than your house?
- my ahma hse?

oww crap plus bullshit=.=
stupid history paper, i didnt manage to complete it.
so angry with this horrible fact. its the first time i didnt finish my papers! wad the hell..
this is so not funny. i got so pissed with myself.
cant i be like less slow and stupid? why do i need to be so dumb=.=
well, whats done is done. no point crying over irreversible matters. waste of time.
but seriously, this paper totally demoralised me. i dont even feel like studying for tomorrows paper.
well i know i still need to study no matter what the out come.
it stinks but whats the chioce. i cant fail and drop to NA.(never gonna happen if i had a choice)i dont wanna retain=.=(not that dumb to that extend) dont wanna go to
3/4 or 3/5 if i had a choice.
haiix jiayou barhh vivien u need to do it to the best that you can.
but history totally nailed me. i never gonna take it if i have a choice
geog is still what i prefer^^
well gonna study later at night. dont feel like reading much. history totally killed me.hate it.well whatever, its not gonna make me feel slapped on the face . hahs but i got good news for me! i passed paper 1 for maths =D super happy. i didnt even get slim passes! (well if mdm lim rembered correctly) well post some other stuff

i need to change some statements i made. saturday i went to my cousin's place. well got bored to the max. dehong , me and my sister like totally rot there at vanessa's place. we have laterally nothing to do. dehong went like totally berserk. he got so bored he started yelling along the lyrics of the songs and all. well yarhh then went home in dehong parents' car. reach home at 10.30pm? yeahh. the next day, which is sunday we than went to our popo house. dehong lended me his guitar chords book. yeahh if i dont learn, my guitar's gonna rot even more at home.yeahh so went to eat then go visit popo. went shopping alittle at TM. well, my father did his shopping spree for the first time and my mother was complaining to him that his clothes occupy to much space when he only occupies 1/3 of the 2.5m long drawer.=.= so after that went home to watch SUPERBAND!
super pissed off! everytime i admire a band they dont get in to the top 2=.=" never gonna admire next time if i could. last 2 year liked LUCIFY they didnt win=.= this year admired YI SHI JIE, they didnt get in top 2. wanna just kick the TV larhh. well the winners were TUZI(3 girls) last years winner was MI LU BING(3 guys) so style. wander if the next couple of year theres gonna be a 3 gay group and a 3 lesbian group. i'm gonna freak at both dude. hahs well dont wanna blog anymore. its getting draggy. thats all i guessed.

just came back from dinner.
i lost my appetite. didnt ate dinner just drank some drink.
i wasn't hungry i lost all apetite. my head is thombing.
hate it. i feel sick..i can't feel sick. i've got papers to take.
well today was a sad day despite the fact that i post about playground and all.
its graduation day for the sec 4E and 5N pupils..
my seniorsTT all gonei am so sad larhh. wan felt like crying larhh. but tears didnt well up so i didnt
got the feeling that i'm gonna cry whn streaming results come out.
despite after SOME guy laughing at me. =.=
for crying when P6 ended and gonna cry for streaming
(don't think his gonna read this)
well anw, SOME guy claims that only SOME guys will laugh at me.
but i told him "so sad..all the guys i know are lyk that..how suay"
lol whatever it is i dont really care.
well still feeling sick. my heads lyk heavy and i still dont feel like eating..
hope tomorrow i will be fine.
(going to visit my popo tmr..)

never thought i all ended like that.
have you been reading? i'm not sure.
but after what i post about you.
i can sense that there's something wrong.
you haven't been friendly to me.
well you're gone for good now.
i won't get a chance to see you anymore. all the best to your new life.
and mine..i hope it will be better. i'll try to forget you, like what i plead to do a year ago.
i didn't wanna hold on anymore knowing that it all come down to a endless wait.
i do love you; i will miss you. but does that matter?
i just hope that you are happy and lead your life just the way you want it.
but if you're reading, i just want to let you know that:
i never regret knowing you from the start.
i won't regret. even if times went back to a year ago.
i still will choose to know you, even thought a know it all will just be meaningless.
now that you are gone, it all gonna start over again. i'm gonna go get a life.
even thought waiting for you was my life; even though i got used to it.
even if the thought of letting you go is hurtful, i guess it's best for us all.
i'm not gonna hold you in my heart anymore. go, just go.
i should have done that long ago, i thought i did that long ago.
but somehow apart of you is still wandering in me.
i won't forget you. i'm just gonna forget the feelings, thats all.
if it was god that wants me to know you, i will thank god.
if it was fate that made me like you, i will thank fate.
but now i won't plead for much.
if fate were to bring us to meet again.. i will thank fate again.
i know i'm stupid, but i realised that if it's what god has instored for me.
i'll take it. even if it means all the pain and hurt. i'll be okay, i'll grow stronger.
i promised myself.
i'm not gonna tell you anything, not yet. after all our exams and when you are long gone off my sight , maybe then, i could tell you.