true enough. i know this feeling, kind of familiar and yet i hate it. its not easy to feel that everything is okay because its not. its hard to pretend when you are not sure what it is. i'm starting to have doubts about myself..i'm not sure about everything anymore. i'm confused..its sickening.

hey. back from another half aday=) okay so AEM was fun=) yeah we DID listen okay. although we were ehh..on msn=X haha but it was interesting=) so after the course we went to MS hse=) haha. everyone's so loud there, but me and novy tried to rest=) right novy? haha! there after tim and clive went off at 5 plus? then followed by nel and keem who went of at 6 plus. so its left with jialat novy belle and me at MS's house=) haha they blackshot-ed haha. very funny !!! yeah. so at arnd 7 plus we left. jialat rushed off first cuz he is late already, novy belle and me went to jiemin's parents shop there=) yeah. so novy left after she bought her drink leaving half for belley and i ordered DINNER. Was so hungry THAT i could FAINT. haha. but i couldnt finish the food so i asked belle if she wants and she kindly offfered to HELP. hah =) yeah its so nice of her=D. okay so me and belle bused home and i had a good laugh. she was listening to her music and she started to mimic the person in the song. one second she was playing air guitar, the next was air drums, then it was the singing and plus alot of CONDUCTING..(i think) haha. cuz her hand were like twisting and turning and flying everywhere haha! opps! =X. okay so i alighted and walked home. cuz i took 39 which doesnt stop at my house but my grandma's so i had to walk home from there=). yeah but it was alright=D cuz my mum called me and i chatted with her untill my house the bus stop=). she awesome although on the way she did complain about the phone bills =X HAHA! reached home went to bathe and now i'm home alone and using the computer XD "!!!" cuz my dad havent reach home yet=) haha. so i BOOKED the computer for tonight=D!

oh. i'm at TP now=) its free time now. ( some sort like it) well, some BOYS in class are super noisy=.= like seriously..why so much noise? i mean its kind of unbareable. lamers. kids. well.. no point. haha. okay so just came back from lunch and like everyobne's in class waiting for the teacher (Mr Lim) yeah. so like everyone i'm on the net=) yeah. so lets see..had breakfast with jialat and maisheng this morning along with my fellow AEM row mates:novy belle keem. yeah. so its like we went for breakfast and then we cab to TP again=X haha. yeah. and the uncle who drives the cab ask keem if he is korean=D haha! super funny. think its cuz his name has a "kim" thats why he assumes that he is from korean. haha! yeah. then we went to class..lol well so now theres nothing much. updates on today will be up soon=)

i just logged out from blackshot. Dont know why but i'm super angry..and scared. sigh. everyone so fierce=( i dont like. sian. well yeah i'm pissed. by the game=.=
annoying. so fed up. having stomachache now=( crap=/. this sucks. like what the shit ass. well.. today's AEM was fun =) kind of like the lecturer. very funny guy. =)( my stomachache !!! ) sick..like really. blocking nose now=( sigh. HATE THIS LARH. just hope that tmr will be a better day=/. A day where everything becomes brighter. A day where i can just live the way i like and just be me. A day where i can just be comfortable with everything.=/ SHIT! well..to my dear girlfriend<3 its up to you=) whatever choices you make is really up to you=) i just hope the choices you make will make u happy=) and when you are happy everyone will be=D esp. me!=) haha yeah. so cheeer up and live life to the best hat it can be although sometimes it can be a total bullshit like mine=/. but well, just make use of what's possible and best.=)

hey=) i editted my blog=) yeah new tagboard too=) yeah. so i cant talk much now cuz i'm going to play blackshot. just now i went to play i was so dizzy=X i cant coordinate properly=( but its okay=) with practise i can do fine=) haha yeah. okay tmr going to TP=) wont be in sch. so dont miss me=) haha okay nvm . bye=D

LOL. i fell sick.
yeah damn ass.haha well..its 12++am and i'm still here=)
yeah. and i'm on the phone with BLACKSHOT people=)
haha. i d/l le. but thn too late to play already.
yeah so i dint play.=) *cough*
*cough* *cough*
sigh..i feel so bastard today=X
yeah very tired and all.
but well its not that bad larh haha.
*cough* *cough*
well.. okay i dont really know what to blog about.
but anw, tmr i'll be playing BLACKSHOT!
okay, next week i wont be going to sch.
i'm going to TP=) yeah. hope it'll be fun=)
*cough* *cough* well..okay. thats all=)

HAHA! well i guess i'm having a chaotic life now.
yeah i'm like full of mixed emotions and everythg=/
yeah..well..i guess i'll just live with it.
although i'm not doing very well.
haha. yeah. hate it=(
but thn what can i do?ell..i guess i'll just pretend to be happy?
i dont knw eh..shit haha!
i'm lost=.= very lost i guess.
i dont knw what to do eh=/ sigh..

today was fun. went to clive's hse in the morning.
haha! yeahh thn i sort of slept at his hse=)
fun. thn watched a super crap horror film.
its a total waste of time. =.=
yeah. and so my first horror film was a crappy one.
its only scary at parts with sudden appearance and loud sound effects.
haha! yeah. thn aft that thy watched mirrors. heard it was scary.
i dont dare to watch it at all.
haha! yeah.. so its like i hide in the study rm with the guys.
haha yeah. and i sort of had a headache cuz i thnk i overslept?
hah yeah. thn hmm..aft a while we went for badminton.
its a little slack larh..but it was fun.
OH! okay. i dont knw wads wrong with me.
this sucks=/
shit man..sigh. i guess i'm going to slp now=(
shoudnt even have used the computer in the first place.
hate this=(
i wanna cry. T.T
to a friend: if u ever read this i guess i'm just not understanding enuf for u=(
sry if i hurt u. my life is in a total mess. i hope u understand.=(
its great knowing you. i'll never forget=).
all the best.