Thursday, January 31, 2008 @ 4:32 pm
haiix..
actualli..although i said all tt ryte..
i m stil recovering..
but i haf the confidence tt we culd b frens..
i haf becum happier..
aft reali letting hyme go frm my hart
aft moving on..
i realise the future wuld b brighter
its nt the ending..
it a new bigining..
i haf let it all go..
i dont wan sympathy frm ani1..
i noe i cn heal myself..
i jus noe i cn
even if i tink of u most of the tyme..
i dont xpect anithg in return.
i dun feel tt bad animore..
i noe wad to du..
i cn pull myself tgt
^^ i once lurve uu..
even if i lurve u still..
dun wry..i m okae..nthg will ahppen we r frens..r we?
i m nt sure
i hope we r
jus tt u go wif hakeem more often..
he culd make u happier if nt u evri tyme lyk nt happi lyk tt
hahs>.<
well..anw
i m OKAES!!
hahs
awn..todae in sku..
wif my new haiir>.<
thn i rch sku.melody was lyk u luk okae
thn novyy cum ler
she sae yr haiir infront veri wierd thn she help me arrng
okae thn i forgt hu sae i veri cute larh..tink qiulin
anw..i went to sku wif new haiir cut
thn we waitted for thm to open the clas so tt we cn go in n take art materials for art.
art was interesting actualli
its lyk so fun lor..
draw the lines ..bt draw alot lor
i c til veri luan
but its fun
i sososo lurve art todae..
thn went to maths..
kaopei..we late for maths thn mdm lim eat into our recess
but oso nt our fault marhh..
its lyk art cher let us off late marh
stupid mdm lim
anw, brahmawan tok the key
thn he purposeli wait long thn go dwn open the clas door..
thn b4 tt mdm lim was lyk"hus holding on to the key!"
hahs bt so lame lor
thn we stil late for recess>.<
i didnt eat recess as usual..
thn aft recess is AC
nabei..
mr chee cum in tok tok tok
i c his face oreadi wan vomit blud lor
he lyk no $ der lor
owaes wear the same thgs..
nvm larh bt thn he act lyk he tink he veri shuai
act lyk we under his control lyk tt
so BHB lor
thn aft tt is chinese thn novyy ki siao agn..
i reali dunoe lehh..she lyk eat rong stuff everidae lor
owaes laugh der..
nt funi oso laugh>.<
hahs
thn nelson jialat liangda yuwei elroy tio punishment
so thy nid to sing "yue liang dai biao wo de xin"
so nan ting lor..
heng thy nv continue
thy yell instead of sing larhh
hahs thn i was laughing..
thn hor ken gt fever..hope he okae lerh
thn gt ting xie b4 tt
so i gt study..
novyy copy mine..isabelle copy hers
hahs lol
thn hist 3 period
mr tan sore throat thn he ryte on the board
thn i ask hyme izit he sore throat thn he sae yar
bt thn cuz our class the bois asshole de
make so much noise thn he nid to speak
thn hor its lyk mr tan goin through the main points marh
thn thy duwan to listen
thn gt ppl tel thm shuddup thy stil tok
until i yell thn gt effect..T.T
i so sad lor i sick ler stil yell..
i oreadi no voice ler lor..
evil ppl
thn aft awhile bac to normal lerhh..
i so piss of lor..
duwan take dun take larh
other ppl oso wan to study de marh
ass..
thn cuz ken fever so cher xcuse hyme he dunid take
thn hor stupid nelson..
he sit bside me to copy ans..
thn hor he du the copying to obvious larh
thn itel hyme"yr actiion cn dun so obvious marh?"
thn i was duin duin
thn i luk arnd cuz neck pain
thn hor i saw sumthg
u noe wad?
malcolm was duin the paper thn he turn arnd..
zubair was lying his head on the table thn hor malcolm flip his paper
thn he hold up his paper lyk he checking..
thn let zubair copy..
thn hakeem sit bside zubair oso copy..
so lao ya lor..
thn aft the paper thy speak so loud..
malcolm was lyk"u gt ryte finish?"
zubair sae "ya"
malcolm ask hakeem"u leh?"
hakeem sae "yar"
thn malcolm sae...
"all thx to me larh">.<
thn thy high five..
so lame lor..
hahs thn mr tan continue to teach lor
thn bell rang .. hme<3
carmen(tan) : since u rote to me..nw i ryte to u<3
dun so emo larh..
its lyk emo oso no use marh..
everithg wil okae der<3
n hor i tell hyme cuz u noe..i m helping in a wae yar^^
bt jus wanna tel u tt yr nt alone<3
lurve uu lotts..muacks<3
Wednesday, January 30, 2008 @ 6:29 pm
whn tis r ending
tink tt its the new start of a bigining
whn thgs go rong..
tink tt it will b okae soon
everithg is life is lyk tis..
nthg is owaes successful
ppl hu r successful haf tyme whn thy fall
bt thy cn climb bac up n start over agn
so we the fallen cn too~~woot
hahs for tis valentines..
let spend it wif our frenn<3
tt wae we noe tt thr r oso ppl lyk us..
thn we wil b okae..
i quit cutting..
i realise tt it is veri useless..
wad for hurt my self?
hu is he?
hu is he to make me sad?
hu is he to make me hurt myself?
he was once part off my life..
bt i cn survive on my own!
hu nids hyme..
life is nt the ned wifout hyme..
hu is he to mess up my life?
hahs
jus tink it tis wae..
n ppl..we wil feel much much beta
tink the positive wae..
the negative wae wil owaes hurt
hahs
anw..novyy todae durin chinese lyk siao chabo..
she saw liang da fall dwn she kep laugh laugh laugh
she sae tt remind her of me falling dwn i slow motion..>.<
i was lyk..wad the..
hahs
thn she kep laugh lor
tink nv eat medicine
thn i ltr gt tuition hahs
n ppl!
guess wad!
i cutted my haiir
bt lyk my face rounder..>.<
hahs
hu cares
its nt tt bad
hahs hahs hahs..
i dunoe wad to sae..
thn our c boyys oso won ystd
ystd was a great dae..>.<
hahs
todae i nv haf PE cuz i sick (gt gif letter)
nel nel oso ..
bt his is fake larh duhh
i dun blief cher blief tt wad he sae is true..
dunoe wad leg cramp
pls lor so fake hahsXD
thn hor so shong!
CHEE BYE BO LAI!!
kao a..
we tot we cn haf fun bt thn hor..
cum 1 chee bye grandfather..
(okae he acts n surname same as mr chee so^^hahs)
thn novyy oso laugh @ i oso dunoe wad thg..>.<
hahs
she hor reali lehh..
thn hor hahs SIA QIULIN! she over thr cut!
kns! i tel her sosososososo mani tymes nt to ler..
to SIA QIULIN: U BETA DUN CUT HOR..OR ELSE~
hahs
aiya i dunoe wad to sae lerh lor..
Tuesday, January 29, 2008 @ 10:17 pm
LAI SI LI! ACE!!!
woot~
our volleyball c gurl
thy rock!
the won jun yuan sec
it was lyk 25-?(sumthg below 10)
thy so low lor
lose till so lan..tio trash
thn benedict was lyk telling me tt he ask sum of the c gurls to puch the fist thgy..
thn i was lyk WTH..
thn @ choir whn we noe the results tt tyme
he was lyk " u c! cuz thy punch my fist thn thy won.."
i was lyk diao-ing
cuz its lyk so lame larh
tose gurls won using thier own strenght!
tose gurls won using thier own strenght!
not wif the help of his fist actuali..>.<
lamer stupid boi!(i cor him tt wif my broken throat using high pitch)
he was lyk oi!~
thn i kep jumping n slaping hyme larh
its lyk so funn..
anw,i gt the juniors laughing @ choir..
i was lyk so dam hyper todae tt my seniors were lyk
vivien calm dwn..
hahs
thn hor, i was lyk slaming my own stomach wif my hand
thn u noe wad?
i told thm
i slap my stomach okae.
u all dun slap hor!(thy were going to)
will haf internal injuries der
i going die ler so slap nvm hahs
i was lyk laughing thn i sae
choi choi choi stamping the flr..>.<
thy were so laughing @ me
thn the new instructor show us the part which supports our voices
thn she use her hand wobbel for tt person
thn hor tel us to try
cuz whn thr move, yr voice wil shake
thn i was lyk WTH
cuz ryte i tried wif sum sec 1s..
it doesnt seem to wrk
so i was trying my own but i cnt seem to du it
so i was lyk wobbeling all over the place n thy were lyk laughing..
hahs..i noe, lyk ms toh scld jiahui..
i m now metali unsound hahs!
i finalli gt it all clear..
its not worth duing tis thgs over hyme
he wun even gif a dam..
so yy shld i torture myself so miserabli?
i fell sick over hyme..i cut myslef over hyme..
i emo n hyper over hyme..
i reali dun c the pnt..
it tiring actuali
all tt i du is useless..
nthg will chng..
bt i wun du tt animore..
i haf other ppl arnd me hu reali care for me
lyk the GAGAS <3 align="center">my gan family too<3
thy care alot for me..
i wun wanna make thm wry over me..
thy haf gt other beta thgs to du
i shlud nt b so childish..
i shuld wake up
i noe whn tyme flies..
all my wound will b okae..
i blief in myself..
to all my caring frens<3 align="center">
Monday, January 28, 2008 @ 9:25 pm
haiix
its so tiring nw a daes
yst, novyy melody ql cum my hse
thn hor
we sot of slowli du the geog thgy until evening thn we chiong
pls lor u noe whn i siting @ the com thr i dunoe hw
but thn i suddenli fall dwn wif the chair
thn thy laugh lyk siao
novyy sae wad"she wa lukin @ me thn suddenli she was lyk o!O!OO!!!
thn she fall dwn in slow motion siia"
lyk tt lehh
make me so paiseh thn i oso laugh
thn hor, cuz my mather made sandwiches for thm
(thy lurve my mather make de sandwhich thy sae veri nicer)
thn hor novyy the chin lyk gt hole der lehh
she cn drop little bit thgs whreva she go lor
thn hor gt egg on the floor..
nvm
thn ryte she go put the wrapper on the chair thn suddenli wind blow
thn ryte it landed on the floor
okae nvm thn the floor gt egg>.<
thn cuz we chionging hor
thn i was lyk crawling here siting thr tt i totali forgt thr gt egg
thn aft i sit awhile thn i saw..
thn i ask" novyy the eggs u put here izit?"
thn she was lyk " huh? yarhh.."
thn i was luking @ my butt..
thn she was lyk " u sit on it izit?"
thn i sae" novyy arhh!!! yy u go put the eggs thr thn i totali forgt"
thn gt 1 patch of oily thg on my pants..>.<
stupid novyy...
thn thy went hme lor i tink is ql de father send thm to pasir ris inter
todae..
i gt abit of an emotionall break out
if u notice..
i gt high all of a sudden n thn gt emo the nex min..
thgs reali chng..
i dun feel lyk goin to sku
whn eva i c hyme..it juz makes me feel worst
i dont noe yy
mayb i m the oni 1 feeling lyk tt
i tink he had moved on..
i juz hope tt i cn gt over it..
if nt wuld slash myself deeper..
well, its the first tyme i felt so happi whn slashing my arm..
it feels as if tts the oni pain i had..
nthg else matter juz tt the slashing hurts..
i forgt al the pain but once i feel worst i feel lyk duin it agn..
i reali tot of chnging sku..
it feel pathetic
i cnt rest properli in tis sku
i haf gd fren
i haf gt lurvli ganns..
bt its jus tt..i feel depresed
whn eva i c mr chee i feel lyk crying..
xpeciali todae..
i hate hyme
i feel the urge to leave the class
mayb its cuz of my emotions..
i sort of haven gt over yet..
i wanna du sumthg abt it
@ least chng my sit of sumthg
chng my class?
tts beta
thn i wun hurt me tt much..
bt well..he seems happi wif out me..
so it dosent matter whr i m..if his happi..thn let it b
as long his happi i dont care wad happens to me..i dun even care if i bleed
as long his happi..
i hope the tyme reali heal me whithin
if nt i wil slash agn ^^ it great pain relief meathod..i guess
anw..i dont belong aniwhr..
hw i wish it all wil end wif a happi ending..
dying seems to a great ending..
bt i m nt readi to end my life yet..
although it all sucks..i dun mind living through..
even if it kills me..
even if i bleed to death..
even if i slash my self n is left wif scars..
it hurts..
but hu cares?
Saturday, January 26, 2008 @ 6:56 pm
haiix
so pathetic lor
juz finish the anti-smoking thgy abit
so tired lor
sumore so hot larhh..
goin to finish ler anw..
thn hor tmr hor.
novyyfy,melodyy,qiulin cuming du geog!
tis is insane larhh
stupid cher
i hate mr chee larh
tell hyme to die faster lor
so qian da
anw..
todae met zaf saira ql yuwei @pasir ris mrt station thr
thn hor we go buy the mterials nided to du the thgy
thn take 358 to my hse thr
rch hme lyk 3.35 lyk tt
thn du du du
du till 6.45 lyk tt
kaopei so lei
thn yi bian du yi bian tok abt mr chee sux thgy
hahs so funi lor
ql sae melody sae tt mr chee 1 wk wear 1 pants
so funi lor
bt haven finish yet lor
>.<
gt sec 1's join choir ler
gt bois join ler!!
nw we cn frm a SSA choir bcum a SAB choir!~
so cool!~ so happi
we broke up..
u ask me if i m sad..
the oni thg i cn sae i didnt even drop a tear..
i noe its gonna happen so it doesnt hurt tt much
to me..
thrs no point in crying over sumthg i noe tts its gonna happen
anw..
if he wans to study thn b it lor
i juz tink it tis wae..
i m free in a sence tts nt tt bad
lalalala~
Wednesday, January 23, 2008 @ 2:58 pm
haiix todae so tiring lor
i tink i ate sumthg contaminated larhh
if nt yy my stomach so pain thn go hme still..
nvm
anw,i finish all my hmewrk in class todae
my maths i gif melody go hme copy XP
hahs(i dun even noe correct anot)
i nv use mdm lim method larh
pls lor
her method i dun underst @ all
i tink oni she noes man!~
aiya hu bluddy cares!~
i noe hw du cn ler
i dun care her
she sux
totali
hahs
^^
i had so much fun todae actuali
okae nt reali cuz i gt tummy ache
but he is so cute^^
i so totali lurve hyme
i wil nv regret der <3
the sweetnes he brings in is sweeter thn the chocolate he lurves to eat
he is sweeter thn the candiies i lurve
he is juz my piece of lolipop
the 1 n oni<3
i lurve hyme^^
thx for caring for me..i lurve u<3333
haix i dun lurve tuitionXP
tis sux..so lei lor
kep tuition thn cca
i will die der lor
lyk die of tiredness?
todae jiwei n nel nel nv go sku Xd
its nt so qiao der larh..
hahs ;D
i noe the reason lor
its lyk so obvious larh
nv go sku together still..
hahs
anw, I HATE MR CHEE!!!!!
ken didi ask me: jie u eat wad medicine so angry for wad?
i sae: i dunid eat lor, i c his face oreadi fire ler
pls larh
he so qian da lor
its lyk i owaes quarrel wif hyme..
waste my voice n tyme
ask me open door nv sae ty he sae
vivien u nt happi izit?
i sae NONONO~
stupid larh
hu wil lyk hyme..i dun even tink he gt wife or gurlfren lor
if haf,tt person eye put stamp der
pls lor tt type of ppl..
hu wan sia
he is totali lyk shit..
he ask us:underst?
i sae: c yr face oreadi dun underst >.<
thn he sae: vivien wad did u sae? sae agn!
i sae: nthg i duwan!
he sae: u beta nt let me hear u sae it agn..
pls lor sumore he speak to ppl 1 to 1 oso lyk yelling larh
lyk we deaf lyk tt
so lyk shit lor..
i HATE MR CHEE!~
Sunday, January 20, 2008 @ 9:36 pm
FINALLI!!!
i finished all my hmewrk..
actuali i left lite..
i dunoe wad thy wan lor
thn i oso haven read finish marhh
stupid stupid me..
so siian lor
juz nw went to buy new year clothes AGAIN..
so tired lor i wan slp le
nex wk go bugis st n shop AGAIN
my mather veri on de
as long gt cheap n nice thgs she sure wan go thr
so i oso folo lor
cuz wad i wan she pay marh
thn she will ask for our opinion on her taste of clothes
bt thn sumtymes her taste abit weird weird der
luk lyk pajamas she oso will kan dao sun yan
my father oso sae lyk pajamas lor
hahs
guess wad..
i saw mr ng juz nw on the MRT(music cher)
he wore t-shirt n jeans
i was lyk OMG!
hahs
ystd i bought white overalls
n white skinnys
todae i bought 1 blue blouse
i haven finish shopping norhh
so siian
12:23 pm
OMG tis is killing me
all tt hmewrk
i cnt even enjoy my wkendss..
wad shit is tis..
i'm lyk omg!~
bt i reali dun haf a choice
bt if its posible
i wan to go bac to b a kid
tts much beta
no wryys
no pain
no hmewrk!
i mean nt so much to tis xtend whr by u cnt even slp properli
tis is horrible..
i'm so tired
haiixx..
no choice anw..
Friday, January 18, 2008 @ 5:35 pm
haiix..
i todae so tired lor
the sec ones tis year sux lyk hell
thy haf totali AP der lor
shout shout shout in the choir rm lyk no bodies buisness
run run run lyk no bodies buisness
hu du thy tink thy r man!~
i was sooooo angry till i scream & point middle finger @ hyme
stupid larh
dun lyk choir dun nid kep sae der marh
thn shout sumore
thn gt 1 kep shout ncc
lyk no bodiies buisness
the point is.
du thy noe respect?
i mean lyk
hw cn thy shout @ thier seniors?
i hate thm
thy make me vomit bludd
thn todae hubby sick..T.T
so ke lian lor
juz nw in class i juz ask hyme if he gt flu
thn he sae juz haf der
thn he go hme tt tyme he pass me my maths bk(i was in choir for concert)
thn he sms me tel me tt he veri sick
n tired nid rest..
so sad lorT.T
hope he gets well soon <3
Sunday, January 13, 2008 @ 11:10 am
its not our fault tt we haf not forgiven you or wadeva
its u hu created it
if u haven bacstabbed on us tis wundnt happen
u tink over dude..
last year during PE i cried
rmb?
u sae i was trying to get pity on yr blog
thn novyy told me tt it was yr idea to pang seh me
haf u ever tot of my feelings?
i did nthg rong
since thn,i losse my trust in you
aft tt i notice tt u hated everi1
u hated melody
u hated sharon
u hated michelle
u hated me
u even hated novyy b4
thn wads the point?
since u said tt u wan to end it thn so b it
thrs no point in keping anithg of yrs
i haf nthg to sae ler
i lurve my hubby~
12 jan 08/9.40pm
tts whn all it starts
i luvre uu so much
missing u oreadi <3...
cnt wait to c u on mondae^^
Saturday, January 05, 2008 @ 3:59 pm
today i shall type in proper english.
becuase this means that i have somthing very improtant to say.
i don't like backstabbing people.
i don't like being betrayed.
that makes me loss trust to that person .
even if forgiven,that doesnt mean we can forget the feeling of being betrayed.
if we are doing something people did to us,
arent we of the same quality as the tratior?
we are not of any difference.
so whats the point of hating someone of the same personality as you?
no difference at all?
i don't want to say this out
but if i don't say it.
i will not feel better at all
so what if we patched? i can't trust you anymore..
do you think what you have done is nothing?
do you think changing is so easy?
do oyu think you shld treat yr friends like this?
we have never offended you in any way..
who do you think you are?
the leader?
the president?
who are you to comment me n backstab me when i did nothing wrong?
who are you to make me sad?
you are nothing,just once my good friend
but now?
u make me sick
u are just nothing to me
maybe just a normal friend
i don't care!
if u did that to us,
why must we treat you nicely?
if u betrayed us
why must we accept you?
you think about it.
Friday, January 04, 2008 @ 11:12 pm
我又用华文来写了！
好开心哦！
我们2e5班超吊的
大多数是从去年的1e5班的同班同学呢！
我今天的choir到6.15分耶超迟的
我一直唱一直唱
我因为没吃午饭，所以饿到要命
但是，我还是用力的强迫自己去唱。
唱唱到变个疯子了
一直走来走去，跳来跳去
就是不能坐好
哈哈
唱完了变得像个死人了
因为太饿了，又因为跳来跳去的关系我变得很疲倦
但是，我和jana和yingying去TM
我要去看有没有老师要我们找的星期五周报
但是没有耶
他们说没有卖了
我心里在想。。
老师是不是搞错了呢？
然后我们就去collect我的“双面飞轮海”的专辑
好开心哦！
我现在在听呢！
好好听哦！
爱死他们了
听说飞轮海在2月的时候会来新加坡开演唱会耶！
我要开始存钱了。。
还有，炎亚纶，小鬼，鬼鬼，范范现在在拍霹雳MIT
好期待哦！~