lol its my 3rd post for the dae..i dunoe yy..
i feel odd todae..it feels worst thn ystd..
it jus makes me feel lyk crying..
i dunoe over wad?
wad du i wan to cry over for?
is it cuz i m losing ppl?
izit cuz i feel empty?
izit cuz i m too stressed out?
or izit cuz i dont belong to ani1,anithg,aniwhr..
izit? or wad i tinking too much?
lol i dunoe wads goin on..i dont noe..DONT NOE
i haven cried yet i dunwan to cry yet just yet
mayb later bt nt nw..
i ate breakfast n lunch tgt..haven taken dinner..
bt i feel nothg of a mood to eat..
i jus feel lyk emptying myself..
nt frm wad i noe bt hw i feel..
i wish i was numb @ hart..
i dont wanna feel anithg no pain no guilt no lurve no sadness..
i dont mind losing happiness..its all i wanted bt i haven gt yet..
i wish i culd study wif no stress i cnt feel ani
thn i culd study beta
i jus hope everi1 will b happi..evri1..if everi1 is happi..
i m willing to sacarifice myself for everi1's happiness.
if it was to pay my life..jus take it..
i dont nid a life..
all i nid is the sense of xsitence , the sense of which i noe whr i belong
may b i m desprate..mayb?
i dont noe..bt i hope nt..i jus wanna study..
study jus study..study wif no worrys..
study.study.study...