Sunday, February 10, 2008 @ 11:29 am
haiix..ya i noe..its new year
so?
new year is okae..i tried to put tose stupid unhappi stuff aside for awhile
but i doesnt help..i wil owaes pop n appear in my mind
i wil owaes ask:wil Mr chee tel my parents?
thn ltr i wil tink:me gave us 3 choices so i pick tt n he wuld nt cor
bt thn the same question wil pop out agn..
i wil nid to kep reassuring myself..
i hate it! its new year..cher tel me ler stil sae: A! vivien,enjoy yr new year hor
he was teling me whn i was sobbing..
yar ENJOY..my new year
wif all tt stress..
i stil wil haf tis : are thy stil angry wif me?
:i oni gt replys frm hakeem n malcolm..(i cnt sms zubair(no fone))
thn ltr:hakeem lyk nt reali angry wif me..malcolm oso..
okae i wil tink lyk tt
but thn i wil oso tink lyk tt
:thy shuld b angry..its my fault acording to thm..
so its my fault n thy r stil angry
yar so all tis haf been floding my mind since new year eve n til now..
its stil killing me..
but i noe its nt ALL my fault..
how wuld i noe..
haiix..but ppl hu noe me wil noe i care more abt ppl's feeling thn mine..
i owaes wil tink for thm first..iwun tink for myself..
tts me..so i wuld kep tinkin it tis wae oso nt my fault..
i was lyk tis since young..
hweva,aft tis incident,it motivates me to study harder..
it puts me to a tinking tt studying is nt veri hard if u want to
so frm nw i wil study hard! veri hard..
its jus tt i dont noe hw to face thm oreadi...
i m so afraid tt thy wuld nt tok to me or b frens wif me animore..
tis is sickening
i m so tired over all tis i nearli pass out ystd..
haiix..hope all wuld end well..