Monday, January 28, 2008 @ 9:25 pm
haiix
its so tiring nw a daes
yst, novyy melody ql cum my hse
thn hor
we sot of slowli du the geog thgy until evening thn we chiong
pls lor u noe whn i siting @ the com thr i dunoe hw
but thn i suddenli fall dwn wif the chair
thn thy laugh lyk siao
novyy sae wad"she wa lukin @ me thn suddenli she was lyk o!O!OO!!!
thn she fall dwn in slow motion siia"
lyk tt lehh
make me so paiseh thn i oso laugh
thn hor, cuz my mather made sandwiches for thm
(thy lurve my mather make de sandwhich thy sae veri nicer)
thn hor novyy the chin lyk gt hole der lehh
she cn drop little bit thgs whreva she go lor
thn hor gt egg on the floor..
nvm
thn ryte she go put the wrapper on the chair thn suddenli wind blow
thn ryte it landed on the floor
okae nvm thn the floor gt egg>.<
thn cuz we chionging hor
thn i was lyk crawling here siting thr tt i totali forgt thr gt egg
thn aft i sit awhile thn i saw..
thn i ask" novyy the eggs u put here izit?"
thn she was lyk " huh? yarhh.."
thn i was luking @ my butt..
thn she was lyk " u sit on it izit?"
thn i sae" novyy arhh!!! yy u go put the eggs thr thn i totali forgt"
thn gt 1 patch of oily thg on my pants..>.<
stupid novyy...
thn thy went hme lor i tink is ql de father send thm to pasir ris inter
todae..
i gt abit of an emotionall break out
if u notice..
i gt high all of a sudden n thn gt emo the nex min..
thgs reali chng..
i dun feel lyk goin to sku
whn eva i c hyme..it juz makes me feel worst
i dont noe yy
mayb i m the oni 1 feeling lyk tt
i tink he had moved on..
i juz hope tt i cn gt over it..
if nt wuld slash myself deeper..
well, its the first tyme i felt so happi whn slashing my arm..
it feels as if tts the oni pain i had..
nthg else matter juz tt the slashing hurts..
i forgt al the pain but once i feel worst i feel lyk duin it agn..
i reali tot of chnging sku..
it feel pathetic
i cnt rest properli in tis sku
i haf gd fren
i haf gt lurvli ganns..
bt its jus tt..i feel depresed
whn eva i c mr chee i feel lyk crying..
xpeciali todae..
i hate hyme
i feel the urge to leave the class
mayb its cuz of my emotions..
i sort of haven gt over yet..
i wanna du sumthg abt it
@ least chng my sit of sumthg
chng my class?
tts beta
thn i wun hurt me tt much..
bt well..he seems happi wif out me..
so it dosent matter whr i m..if his happi..thn let it b
as long his happi i dont care wad happens to me..i dun even care if i bleed
as long his happi..
i hope the tyme reali heal me whithin
if nt i wil slash agn ^^ it great pain relief meathod..i guess
anw..i dont belong aniwhr..
hw i wish it all wil end wif a happi ending..
dying seems to a great ending..
bt i m nt readi to end my life yet..
although it all sucks..i dun mind living through..
even if it kills me..
even if i bleed to death..
even if i slash my self n is left wif scars..
it hurts..
but hu cares?