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Wednesday, October 03, 2007 @ 1:25 pm

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tis isnt happening to me!

i cnt blief it

yy?

i feel so pathetic in a waes..

yy m i here tink abt u whn i dun mean a thg to u?

well tts wad u showed me.

yy r u avoiding me in a sense?

i didnt even du anithg?!

well at least tel me wad is happening.. wil u ?

yy leave me alone to figure out?

mayb i nv told u how i felt

mayb its my prob

mayb i'm juz pureli over sensitive...

but i dun get it?

i m falling deeper!

i wanna stop it!

stop it all

everithg abt u everithg everithg abt u

i wan to forget it al

i want to forget tt i even noe u

i m making myself miserable

yy?

i juz dun get it

i duwan to fall deeper ani longer

i m afraid i cnt climb out of it...

how?

cn u tell me?

m i stil yr fren?

u nv said anithg to me b4

u seem to be avoiding me for sum reason which i dun noe

wads goin on ?

wads happening to me?

do i deserve to bring myself into such a trap?

wad do i haf to du wif u?

yy m i owaes tinking of u ?

i cnt get u out of my dam brain

sum1 gif me a brain wash!

i wan to forget all of it

it hurts alittle

i dun tink its worth waiting for u

whn u dun even noe abt my feelings..

it mainli pointles

yy m i stil wasting my tyme n energy?

i dun recognise myself no more

i dun tink tis is me

i use to b happi

i c u wif hope

but now

i feel lyk an idiot..

a pure idiot

i cnt blief i m tinking of u til tis point of tyme

u flud my mind

u cn avoid me if u wan

but at least gif me a brain wash to forget all abt u

if it makes u feel beta

i dun mind sacarificing my memory

i noe it wil scar my hart but for u mayb

juz mayb

its worth erasing all my memory..

juz for yr happines

i dunmind at all reali

well if my memory is erased..

i wun tink of u animore

i wun haf to waste my tyme

my effort

i dun haf to get hurt animore..

all tis tyme i waited

but i tot it was quite obvious tt i lyked u

u cn b such a retared..

mayb i tink to much

mayb i was rong to lyk u

i wan to gif u up now..

but i cnt

it hurts me

i m crying

i nv cried for ani1

u will b the first..

hopefuli i wun b sure a fool to cry for ani1

for a second tyme

but it reali hurts...alot

i cnt blief i fell for tis trap again..

i wil nv b loved n wil nv love ani1 again..

well mayb

but i cnt forget abt u..

cn u juz get out?

yy did i even noe u

yy did i even cum here in the first place?

yy m i making myself feel bad?

why!

i cnt help it..

i m pathetic

i tot alot todae..

alot..

u wil nv noe

cuz i dun mean a thg to u in the first place

u said we culd b frens u said it yrself.

i trusted everithg u said

everi single wrd u said..

i stil rmb til now..

i cnt blief it!

but i lyked u..mayb sum dae it wil chng..

but for now..i noe it wil nv chng

so the oni method is erasing my memory..

mayb it worth duing it for my sake...not yrs

i feel painful..u dun even noe?

wad for typing all tis if u dun read it at all

i juz type out how i feel deep inside

i nv show thm out

juz erase my memory..

i cnt take it too long

it killing me

it cnt b helped animore

wads the point?

its such a pathetic fate..

mayb onedae..

juz mayb one dae..

i wil mean sumthg to u ..

well i hope of it

mayb i wil mean sumthg to u

mayb u wil not avoid me

juz mayb...